Stress is just from everywhere. am i too ambitious? or am i just incapable? im feeling really sorry to lots of ppl ard me.. be it my group members or canoe-polo dudes... i just doesn't have much time to discuss project with u guys and im hating it... im really srry.. and at the same time i don't even know what im doing is what im suppose to do. shld i just concentrate on my sch life and forsake the other aspect? my part time job and n.u.m and freelance modeling at Shine Models . on the other hand im really happy tat my pay at n.u.m increased to 6 bucks and im going for modellng lessons fully sponspored by Shine.. how am i suppose to give up all these when im just starting to get the best out of it? i really need to strike a balance between sch and working life... just all these stress, its inevitable. i have to find a way. another common test is comming up, i will prove to myself what im doing wun affect my studies. be it proving to myself or to others. i must do it.